“Sing, O childless woman, you who have never given birth! Break into loud and joyful song, O Jerusalem, you who have never been in labor. For the desolate woman now has more children than the woman who lives with her husband,” says the Lord. 2 “Enlarge your house; build an addition. Spread out your home, and … Continue reading A song of joy; rebuilt with treasure – Isaiah 54
On Sunday at our church's Christmas carol service I had the privilege of sharing what God has been talking to me about over the past few months. These videos, made by my incredibly talented friends Georgia Hrubiak and Alastair Errett, talk a little about how God can bring us through circumstances from which we thought … Continue reading Hope is still my battle cry!
Christmas is joy and fun and laughter and grace (bring it on!) but it can also be sitting with situations that make us sad and determining to look to unrelenting hope in the face of darkness. Perhaps it’s depression or the loss of a loved one or dashed dreams or an unexpected diagnosis. Yet still … Continue reading Glory in the Darkest Place
Sometimes it helps to remember that loss/grief is not linear and has no time limit. And in this way it is also helpful to remember that healing works in the same way.
We came back here today - a kind of pilgrimage of peace - six months after our last visit. Last time I sat in these hands we were preparing for our IVF embryos to be transferred in. We were so full of hope and expectation having recovered from the devastation of the events of the … Continue reading Tho He slay me…..
The other day I found myself listening to the song that helped me through our first failed IVF pregnancy at the beginning of the year. It's a beautiful song by Emile Sande called Breathing Underwater and sums up for me the incredible, despair-free journey we took as we lost two little ones to miscarriage over … Continue reading We’re going on a Bear Hunt
To my darling nieces, I have just returned from another wonderful afternoon with you and wish I could convey how full you leave my mother's heart every time I come away. I am brimming, bubbling, effervescing with the sheer joy of having spent time in your company. One day I will tell you just how … Continue reading A Letter to my Nieces
"As quiet hours turn into years....." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eru8DlHoOFM Allman Brown & Liz Lawrence - Sons and Daughters
Reading declarations of love and appreciation about someone's spouse on social media has a tendency to make me feel just a little bit queasy. I'm not madly into PDAs although hand holding and the occasional side hug are fine every now and then. But it would be wrong of me, after all this time, not … Continue reading My Husband, My Hero
When it finally happened, just over two weeks after my scan, nothing could have prepared me for this miscarriage. The clinic's simple instruction to 'go home and miscarry', and even my previous experiences were insufficient. I feel it's important to share some of the details of my miscarriage here on this blog, not to wallow … Continue reading Miscarriage