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The Stamina of Hope
As much as I might wish it otherwise, the news that a friend is pregnant – for the first, second or third time – is still as likely, after all these years, to leave me a snotty, crumpled jumble of… Continue reading
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Brave New World – our private IVF journey
In December 2015, after our round of IVF on the NHS failed before it had barely begun, we decided to consider private treatment. Although I carried on writing, I felt unable to publish these particular blogposts in real-time. IVF cranks… Continue reading
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Another Cheeky Polyp
I knew it had to come out at some point – this wretched dangleberry as I had affectionately nicknamed it – that was taking up precious space inside my uterus. Another interruption and anomaly in my reproductive system. Yet when… Continue reading
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The Breathing Room
The Breathing Room (Psalm 62) I enter your temple, your fortress, and I feel my lungs expand and relax in the cool, sweet air. All is still. All is safe. I sense my breathing slow as the door closes behind… Continue reading
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How Infertility has Blessed my Marriage
My husband and I are enjoying our five year wedding anniversary today. How time flies! When I look at this photo from our wedding day it sums up how full our hearts were as we left the church to continue… Continue reading
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Contrasts and Conflicts
Life is full of contrasts and conflicts. I’m learning this again at the moment. I thought I had moved past some of the negative emotional aspects of infertility, but it seems that they had simply lain dormant for a while. … Continue reading
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Becoming an Overcomer
Last summer I blogged about the importance and effectiveness of acknowledging and celebrating the tiny victories in the midst of life’s struggles. I have continued to hold onto these moments, to be grateful for them and to encourage my friends… Continue reading
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A Poem for a Tuesday
The Bright Field by RS Thomas I have seen the sun break through to illuminate a small field for a while, and gone my way and forgotten it. But that was the pearl of great price, the one field that… Continue reading
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God Loves a Treasure Hunt
Father God has brought me back to the very beginning. One of the very first things He taught me as his light shone through the darkness of the earliest of our infertile days is how much He loves a treasure… Continue reading
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It’s Coming
Over the last three years I have come to hate the word “soon”. In prayers. In conversations. When asking God for something to be here “soon”. It is a word without purpose, commitment or passion. I have asked God for… Continue reading
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