I’ve discovered this beautiful song this week. For me, it encapsulates the messy, lonely seasons when we feel the gaping distance between ourselves and God and don’t know how to get back from where we are. We can feel haunted… Continue reading

I feel like I’m screaming into pitch darkness. I can’t see, can’t find my way. It’s just blackness. I’m stuck in this one place, the earth beneath my feet well-trodden, well-worn. This grief, this longing, this yearning to have control… Continue reading

September 2021 I stood in our hallway, clutching my friend and sobbing into her shoulder. “God doesn’t have favourites” she whispered into my ear, soothingly. I’d just received another second baby pregnancy announcement and this one hit home so much… Continue reading

2021 breaks in and our hopes are for the wonder and miracle of pregnancy to delight and expand our family again. With one embryo left in the ‘freezer’ we long to land on the same side of the coin as… Continue reading

How are you doing? It’s been a while! I’ve thought of this space often. It’s not that I haven’t wanted to write; I have. So many things have fought for this precious place over the last couple of years including… Continue reading

I’ve written a fair amount about our personal experiences of miscarriage. For today, during Baby Loss Awareness Week, as I think of so many women and couples who know this reality, here’s another voice saying it just as it is… Continue reading

As I sit in the almost-darkness of the nursery cradling the baby back to sleep, I can’t quite believe I’m here. I study the walls now decked with a rainbow string of fairy lights and pretty pictures and ponder how… Continue reading

Despite every success story you’ve ever heard (and thankfully there are lots of them), statistically there are actually many more tales of IVF (In vitro fertilisation) not resulting in a positive conclusion. Recent statistics state that on average IVF fails… Continue reading