This time last year our world was imploding for the third time in six months. We had already had two miscarriages at the beginning of the year and despite a positive pregnancy test after our IVF embryo transfer in May, by June the early scan showed that the pregnancy wasn't viable and we would miscarry … Continue reading What I have learnt since our last miscarriage
If you haven't already come across the beautiful voice of Kirby Kaple who sings with the American Christian band Housefires, here's the perfect introduction. Kirby wrote this song about her struggle with infertility (have a Google to find out more about her story). For me, this song perfectly summarises the pain and grace that those … Continue reading Hope don’t let me go…
How often do you give yourself permission to look back and consider how far you've come? Do you pay attention to the critcal voice inside your own head or do you listen to the kind voice of the Father that sees the effort, the overcoming, the faithfulness, the moving forward? Would you allow yourself to … Continue reading The battleground of faith
Over the last five years I've had the privilege of chatting with countless women about their infertility journeys, and I've been so grateful for their vulnerability, honesty and willingness to share what they've been through. It has encouraged me, renewed my faith and reminded me that I'm not alone. Through these conversations, I've noticed a … Continue reading Keep holding on
I'm so glad you've dropped by to read my blog. Below you'll find my most recent posts and if you have a rummage along the menu you'll also find a little info about me, a copy of the first post I ever wrote which explains my story and a page of useful resources. Helena x
I have been reluctant to write about this subject for a very long time now. Quite frankly, I feel I will only have earned my right to talk about it once I'm totally sorted on the topic. But earlier this week I received another email asking for advice on how to deal well with the … Continue reading Another dreaded pregnancy announcement…
There are good days and there are days when another wretched pregnancy announcement seems impossible to stomach and the tears of frustration and envy are never far away. There are days when the adoring photo of father with baby son plastered across social media feels like a cold, hard hand slapping across the face. There … Continue reading There are good days and…
As we approached the end of 2017, I found myself marvelling at the realisation that I was no longer zoning in on 23:59 on 31st December in an eagerness to shake the dust off my feet from a difficult year and launch over the threshold into a spotless new year, as yet untainted by pain … Continue reading Acceptance with Joy
As I sleepily shuffled to the toilet in the pitch black early hours of the morning a few days ago, I distinctly heard God's voice speak to my semi-conscious mind, "I have not forgotten you. I just need you to trust me". Trusting God has been a recurring refrain from our Father's heart to these … Continue reading Middle of the Night Shufflings
“Sing, O childless woman, you who have never given birth! Break into loud and joyful song, O Jerusalem, you who have never been in labor. For the desolate woman now has more children than the woman who lives with her husband,” says the Lord. 2 “Enlarge your house; build an addition. Spread out your home, and … Continue reading A song of joy; rebuilt with treasure – Isaiah 54
