How are you doing? It’s been a while! I’ve thought of this space often. It’s not that I haven’t wanted to write; I have. So many things have fought for this precious place over the last couple of years including the thought that now I have a child, perhaps my voice on this subject is … Continue reading Looking Beyond my Longing
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Baby Loss Awareness Week 2019
I've written a fair amount about our personal experiences of miscarriage. For today, during Baby Loss Awareness Week, as I think of so many women and couples who know this reality, here's another voice saying it just as it is in this article in The Guardian... https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2019/oct/07/12-week-pregnancy-rule-miscarriage-shame-failure?CMP=fb_gu&utm_medium=Social&utm_source=Facebook#Echobox=1570452364
It’s a…
As I sit in the almost-darkness of the nursery cradling the baby back to sleep, I can't quite believe I'm here. I study the walls now decked with a rainbow string of fairy lights and pretty pictures and ponder how in years gone by these walls were covered in frantic prayers, Bible verses and prophetic … Continue reading It’s a…
A few thoughts on IVF
Despite every success story you've ever heard (and thankfully there are lots of them), statistically there are actually many more tales of IVF (In vitro fertilisation) not resulting in a positive conclusion. Recent statistics state that on average IVF fails 70% of the time and it takes almost four-and-a-half years to conceive using it. The … Continue reading A few thoughts on IVF
Infertility and mental health
It was World Mental Health Day earlier this week and as I studied the various articles appearing in the media, I found my mind going over and over the impact that infertility has had on me mentally over the years. Would I say I had a mental health "problem"? I guess it depends how you … Continue reading Infertility and mental health
The Baton of Breakthrough
I have contemplated this moment for such a very, very long time. And finally, though we're still rubbing our eyes in awe and disbelief, here we are. I picture every woman I love and know, as well as those I don't know, who are waiting for their babies or who are recovering from loss and … Continue reading The Baton of Breakthrough
What I have learnt since our last miscarriage
This time last year our world was imploding for the third time in six months. We had already had two miscarriages at the beginning of the year and despite a positive pregnancy test after our IVF embryo transfer in May, by June the early scan showed that the pregnancy wasn't viable and we would miscarry … Continue reading What I have learnt since our last miscarriage
Hope don’t let me go…
If you haven't already come across the beautiful voice of Kirby Kaple who sings with the American Christian band Housefires, here's the perfect introduction. Kirby wrote this song about her struggle with infertility (have a Google to find out more about her story). For me, this song perfectly summarises the pain and grace that those … Continue reading Hope don’t let me go…
The battleground of faith
How often do you give yourself permission to look back and consider how far you've come? Do you pay attention to the critcal voice inside your own head or do you listen to the kind voice of the Father that sees the effort, the overcoming, the faithfulness, the moving forward? Would you allow yourself to … Continue reading The battleground of faith
Keep holding on
Over the last five years I've had the privilege of chatting with countless women about their infertility journeys, and I've been so grateful for their vulnerability, honesty and willingness to share what they've been through. It has encouraged me, renewed my faith and reminded me that I'm not alone. Through these conversations, I've noticed a … Continue reading Keep holding on
