treasures in the darkness

Sometimes it helps to remember that loss/grief is not linear and has no time limit. And in this way it is also helpful to remember that healing works in the same way. Continue reading

We came back here today – a kind of pilgrimage of peace – six months after our last visit. Last time I sat in these hands we were preparing for our IVF embryos to be transferred in. We were so… Continue reading

The other day I found myself listening to the song that helped me through our first failed IVF pregnancy at the beginning of the year. It’s a beautiful song by Emile Sande called Breathing Underwater and sums up for me… Continue reading

To my darling nieces, I have just returned from another wonderful afternoon with you and wish I could convey how full you leave my mother’s heart every time I come away. I am brimming, bubbling, effervescing with the sheer joy… Continue reading

Reading declarations of love and appreciation about someone’s spouse on social media has a tendency to make me feel just a little bit queasy. I’m not madly into PDAs although hand holding and the occasional side hug are fine every… Continue reading

When it finally happened, just over two weeks after my scan, nothing could have prepared me for this miscarriage. The clinic’s simple instruction to ‘go home and miscarry’, and even my previous experiences were insufficient. I feel it’s important to… Continue reading

I’ve been asking myself this week whether blogging in my current state is a wise idea. I’m not feeling particularly rational. I’ve been struggling to sleep. I haven’t spent hours in prayer or reading my Bible this week and I’m… Continue reading