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  • One Step Forwards, Two Steps Back

    In the beginning every passing month was notched up on a chalkboard in my mind and I would hope we would be pregnant before we reached the next six month milestone. Now the months blur and I cannot remember without… Continue reading

  • The Meaning is in the Waiting

    As I continue in this place of reflection, considering the last eighteen months, I am saddened to hear from mothers who have been through this before me still pondering the meaning of their own journey. Despite the babies they now… Continue reading

  • His Transforming Work

    I am not who I was.  There is no question in my mind that the Helena of February 2013 has gone.  I am not exactly sure what the changes are but I know I carry an inner strength that was… Continue reading

  • Learning Steady Steps

    July is here and with it the imminent arrival of friends’ newborns and the news of the blessing of a new addition to our wider family. My desire is to celebrate wholeheartedly the joyful news of those around us. I… Continue reading

  • Flowers in the Window

    The doubts had started to creep in again and I have found myself again increasingly fearful that the one thing I hope for – to be pregnant – is not what He has chosen for me. God reminded me powerfully… Continue reading

  • A year on….

    28th February 2014.  This week marks a year since we started trying for a baby. Twelve months. Three-hundred-and-sixty-five long days of overly-conscious barrenness. Empty of new life.  This is where we are at and after a year of not really… Continue reading

    A year on….